Journey without maps
Night trainThe moon’s wide open mouth, its thin light over fields and woods that could be anywhere, distant names of cities chanted on the speakers – their two notes born free, born free.
Outside the same night: lit windows flying backwards through the dark, the streetlamps of little towns lighting empty roads no one is walking home, late, tipsy.
And in a flash of sudden neon a tall crane in a field of wrecked cars. It is the night of old shoes, their mouths slackly open: where now brother, how long ago was yesterday, how many days until tomorrow?
September distanceA blur of birches. Borders that are more than what you feel there, wind rushing the reeds, long wing of wild geese flying south, sunflowers, poppyheads and milkweed, forest, mile after mile the tall fields of maize, the long plains measuring the distance, west to east autumn yellowing the leaves.
It is a place called Russian Horse, a place called Shoemaker in Iron County, a city of bells and crippled gipsies. the Gold Boys in an out the bars. The streetsweeper sifts his broom for flakes of fallen gold. The dancing whore in Goat Town calls oh tonight I want a man between my legs.
What Feri saidIn the far distant relation between Finnish and Hungarian
one sentence is the same and only one and though
we don’t know what it is we know it is about fish,
a live fish swims underwater. And in Vogul a sentence
The same as ours it says Twenty women’s horses go on ahead.
GlimpseOf a man tapping his finger on a map: here, I live here, not much of a place, a crossroads with a light that doesn’t work a store that doesn’t sell much and a closed petrol station, nowhere in particular but we think it’s the centre of the universe: Podunkstadt that was before the wars, thereafter called Amnesza.
After the changes the beer is better but still undrinkable. Things are not good but they are not unhopeful Here we have the best of everything but you can’t have any of it.
Closed border, SloveniaOver there the flag of one country blowing in the wind of another beyond the closed checkpoint: fields, river, birchscrub, the same.
This is the border where the road runs out into a tractor trail of snowy mud to the last house by the wire, and all the dogs are barking.
Nothing between me and the wind, tall reeds and border fences, here to say I’ve been here, take a snapshot and turn home,
a traveller with his keepsakes- a man’s bone from an old battlefield, a bent bullet from Mostar, weary with the weight of myself.
TV in the EastOn SKY and SAT late night images passing for desire and its flesh, the play of light wherein they kiss and soft things flutter to the floor, a mouth begins its snail of a descent to the promise of a breast and cut to the commercial: all the lives we may not want and cannot have.
And on the Russian channel mirror script: mountains, a place far to the east of open sky and early snow, a swift upland river and slow drummers, chants, horses and horsemen, women in a long line through windy smoke, led by an old man wearing skins, on his head the antlers of a deer.
Waking in Heroes’ ParkToo many days counting coup on the borders: countries sucking on their stones, some gone rusty in the rain, another sulking on its wounds.
Markets and stations, crossings where the police jump on the vagrants and the fugitives, everyone’s a suspect, everyone an item in their career moves.
In Heroes’ Park I wake to white noise and the world sailing its ocean of dirty air, across a bridge men carrying planks, copper pipe and scaffolding, tea kettles,
sheets of clear glass. And through the autumn trees a line of bright schoolchildren, babbling like a river, where I wake, dreaming of chickens. |